Chapter 20- Sweet misery
Isabella
I heard a light knock at the door, but I ignored it. I didn’t want to see anyone, not even Violet at the moment. My mind was messed up, all I wanted at the moment was to be left alone in my misery.
I heard the door open at ease and shut quietly. I totally forgot to lock the door after that monster made a public mockery of me last night. The bed sank under the weight of someone who sat beside me on the bed, it was Violet I knew by her scent.
” Greetings Bella,” she said softly and pushed the hair from my face.
” You don’t seem too well, is there anything you would want me to prepare for you,” she said while trying to avoid meeting my gaze.
I sighed, I could tell by the way she was avoiding my eyes that she knew about what happened last night.
” Talk to me, Violet, what do you know?” I asked weakly
” Nothing Luna, I was just checking on you, you don’t seem too strong.” She replied
“Who told you about last night’s incident,” I grumbled
“Nobody Luna, last night I came upstairs to check on you and overheard what the Alpha was telling you, and also we all heard the cry of pleasure echoing from his room.”Original from NôvelDrama.Org.
I could only whimper in my shame, that means the whole pack knew that my husband chose to bed another woman and cast me out like a slave. They would equally find out that we share a mate bond if not his infidelity wouldn’t have affected me this much.
Violet sighed and hugged me tightly ” I’m so sorry, Bella for all the pain you went through.”
I have barely known Violet but she has been nothing but nice, sweet, and caring to me. I was hurting so bad and it seems that her hug stirred up dozens of emotions within me. I curled up in her body and cried again. I know I vowed not to cry again but there was something about Violet rubbing my back and saying comforting words and the cuddles turned on the fountains in my eyes and I let it spill. I sniffled and pulled away from her arms.
” Sorry Vi, I messed up your clothes with my tears,” I mumbled
She smiled and dried my tears with her hands and apron ” Stay strong, Bella,” she said, staring me right in the eyes
” One day he would realize that he lost a gem while chasing a pebble,”
” I need to prepare something for you to eat, hold on, I will be back shortly,” she left and gently closed the door.
I lay in bed and stared at the ceiling and wondered who the whore was. It bothered me to think that somewhere in the pack she would be watching and making jest of me after fucking my husband and my mate. I should have gotten close to him or maybe I would have gone into his bedroom to get her scent, so I would be able to find out who whore was.
But then again, what happens when I find out who she was? Was I going to confront her? Would I stoop so low to fight her? What if I confront her and Arden decides to disgrace me more and side with her? What could be more heartbreaking than that?
The door opened and Violet slipped inside with a tray and silently propped a table in front of me and slowly began setting up the dishes.
” Please have the food while it is still warm, Luna,”
Violet said after she was done. I was still lying on the bed and I looked down at the small setup in front of me.
A dish filled with sandwiches, a bowl of veggie soup, ginger tea and a glass of juice, and some evenly cut fruit slices were placed upon the table, waiting to be devoured by me.
“Violet, I sincerely appreciate your help but I’m not really hungry,” I mumbled
“Shh! You need to eat so you can take the herbs the pack physician is preparing and relax as well,” She chided
” Thanks,” I muttered and picked up the cup. The tea was refreshing and it calmed my aching nerves. I gave her a small smile and took another sip, it felt nice and rejuvenating.
I rubbed my palms against each other. I wasn’t sure how to say it, I wouldn’t want to sound stupid or obsessive but my curiosity got the best of me. I need to find out the answer.
” Do you know who it was last night?” I asked.
She shook her head and her pretty curls danced around her face. ” Luna, there is something you need to know about Alpha Arden.”
” Please, speak,” I urged her
” Mmm. Uhm… You see Alpha Arden likes a lot of women, he enjoys the act of having different women gracing his bed.” She answered in a low tone
What have I gotten myself into? I thought about what Violet had just said as I tore the sandwiches into tiny pieces without eating them. I couldn’t blame the girls who had slept with him before I came along. I guess they find him handsome and captivating or maybe they were ambitious and had hopes of securing a place in his heart and becoming the next Luna.
But what kind of woman sleeps with a newly married man? That was shameless and disgusting. I have to face the reality, my husband doesn’t love me.
Hell No!!! He didn’t even like me.
He loathed me in a way that defied explanation. And he derives pleasure in hurting me both physically and emotionally. It seemed barbarity was part of his essence and evil was a tonic in his blood. I was so certain that what happened last night was bound to be repeated. And if that’s the case, I wouldn’t become infirm and act like a timid miserable lamb.
I picked up my spoon and bowl of soup and began eating. I need to eat and stay strong. I won’t allow him to mess with my sanity, even though I’m stuck in this sweet misery bond with him.
I would show him that I can stand up for myself, I can defend myself. I’m done being an object of his mockery.