Melancholy
Zane’s POV
Standing on top of the cliff, I gazed out at the vast forest below. I sighed, feeling the ache in my heart that I could never seem to get rid of. It was always there, reminding me of the missing piece in my life. I thought of Maya, my mate. I missed her more than anything in the world but I knew I couldn’t go to her until I had finished sorting out the issues with my father. I couldn’t underestimate the man because he was capable of destroying me. One wrong move, and I would be done for.
Closing my eyes, I let my mind wander. It drifted back to the night I met her. I remembered how captivated I was by the beautiful young woman. I had been so angry to see her with that bloodsucking vampire and she had been so scared when I attacked him. I had not been happy with how everything had gone.
I remembered seeing her again when she was talking to the receptionist about me while trying to take sneaky glances at me. I chuckled. If she knew that I heard everything she was saying that day, she’d be mortified. The next time I saw her, I was going to tell her about it, just to see the reaction on her lovely face.
The best memory was of us making love. We had bonded so well and had developed an inexplicable connection. I had been tempted to mark her, but that I realized that would not be good. I didn’t want to do something like that before informing her of what I was, and what being mated to me forever meant. I didn’t want to force her to accept a life she was not prepared for.
After meeting my mate, things had changed for me. I had never felt a deep connection like the one I felt with her. The moon goddess had done well in finding me the most suitable mate. Some people got mates that were terrible but luckily that had not happened to me. The only problem for me was that she was human who knew nothing about werewolf nature. It made things more complicated.Content held by NôvelDrama.Org.
I felt the weight of my loneliness as I stood there. I longed for her, to feel her soft skin against mine, and smell her sweet scent. It was irritating that I couldn’t go to her. My father was still a very big threat and it seemed more than half the elders were with him. I was trying to get him incarcerated but it was proving to be a bit tough.
I missed Maya but if she was going to be part of my pack at some point, I needed to make it secure and peaceful. I couldn’t tell her about it while there was a lot of uncertainty looming over it. I wondered how she was doing and if she thought of me as much as I thought of her.
Two hours later, I was seated in a dimly lit seedy bar in the suburbs of the city. I was drinking my fourth glass of whisky, hoping it would take away the ache in my chest. I missed Maya so much even though I had only mate her a few weeks back. She was the woman meant to be with me forever and it sucked that she was not with me.
Because of all the problems I was facing, I was filled with anger and frustration that never seemed to go away. I was stuck in Misenium trying to get rid of my traitor of a father. I needed some kind of relief from all the negative feelings in my body.
A woman approached me. She was very beautiful and looked to be in her mid-thirties, older than me. Her low cut dress exposed her big melons. She offered to buy me a drink, and although I could afford a drink of my own, I accepted. She seemed to be new to the city, and very daring. If she knew who I was, high chances are she wouldn’t have been so brave. I had quite the reputation, especially among the supernaturals. I could tell she was a wolf.
After I accepted, she slid into the booth next to me. We talked and I was glad to have someone to talk to. I told her about the woman I loved and how far she was, making sure not to reveal the sensitive details. We talked and laughed for over two hours. She made me feel desired and needed which weakened my resolve. I found myself kissing her and growing hard while her hands caressed my body. In that moment, my alcohol-clouded mind forgot about Maya.
We stumbled out of the bar and she took me to her hotel. By the time we got to the door, we were tearing each other’s clothes off and kissing like our lives depended on it. I took her hard and fast, needing the release as fast as possible. She seemed to enjoy it and encouraged me to go on. When we were done, I lay on my back and stared at the ceiling. I felt a wave of guild but it was replaced by the thought that I needed the release Maya couldn’t provide. I needed to escape from the pain that plagued me night and day and was willing to do whatever it took to forget it.
At that moment I refused to think it was cheating because Maya and I were not in a relationship. We had only slept together once and she had left almost immediately. We had not talked about dating. If we were officially together, I would never think of getting in bed with another woman.
When she started touching me again, I sat up and got off the bed. No, I couldn’t continue doing this. Now that I was fully sober, the gravity of what I had done become clearer and I felt disgusted by myself.
As I walked away from the hotel, I realized I needed to see Maya. If I continued like this, who knew what I’d do. I went to my house and took a quick shower before getting to bed. Come what may, I planned to go to Sunham the next day and take a glimpse of her. Maybe that would get rid of the ache in my heart.