He Didn't Make It
He Didn't Make It
ZOE’S POV SIX MONTHS. Six months had passed swiftly, but Helios was still not waking up. There’s still no progress. And I almost wanted to give up, but I knew he was trying to fight. He’s trying to come back for me… for us. And every single thought of losing him almost tears me apart. How many medications have been injected into him? I lost count. I pray every day, especially when I’m on his side, holding his hand, pressing it, and talking to him. I know there’s still hope. And I believe a miracle could exist. Our daughter turned one about a month ago. We celebrated it inside his room, trying to lighten the atmosphere that day, but even if we tried hard, we all knew we couldn’t. We can’t be happy, seeing Helios lying on this hospital bed, apparatuses plunged into some parts of his body and sleeping so sound that it gives a false alarm—that he will let go at any moment. Damn it! May God forgives me. Many people out there wanted to take themselves for useless things. Why should it be him? Why does Helios need to suffer? Yes, we are all sinners. Helios maybe kill hundreds or thousands of men, but can’t he have another chance to live and make things up the second time? “Zoe, sweetie,” said mom while she sat down beside me, “you should take some rest. If Helios sees you… like this, I’m sure she will get mad.” I can see the streak of extreme concern in her eyes. I shook my head, “I’m fine, mom. If he wakes up, I… I,” my voice almost broke, “I want him to see me first. I… I,” tears fell. I can’t hold them back. I couldn’t stop the pain that kept on throbbing inside me. “I want to hold his hand until he wakes up,” I said. My voice is weakening. My mother taps and caresses my left shoulder as she hugs me from the side. “Sweetie, we all know that you don’t want to leave him, but your child will be affected. It would be best if you took care of your body too. You’re pregnant, Zoe, and I don’t want that something might happen to you too.” The thought of me being pregnant, I almost wanted to get hysterical, but I couldn’t. Yes, I’m pregnant. When things happened between Helios and me in the shower room, it happens that bears another blessing. My baby bump is getting bigger each day. I will already be giving birth to another
angel in just two months. But Helios still enjoys sleeping and lying in the white hospital bed. Will he still wake up? “Please, sweetie, listen to your doctor. Helios won’t like what you were doing to yourself,” said mom. That makes me cry more. I hugged Helios and cried. “You’re being unfair, Helios. You’ve been resting for months. Isn’t that enough? Are you still lacking in sleep that you need to rest this long? I’m… I’m already having a hard time, Helios. But I don’t want to give up. I don’t want to give up on you. Because I know you’ll come back to us. Please… please, babe, come back to us. I wanted you to hold my hand when I’m giving birth to our second child.” The white blanket got wet because of the insatiable flow of my tears. I tightened my grip on his hand and kissed it. “Helios, come back to me, please,” I muttered weakly. Mom stood up and comforted me. “He’ll come back. He must. So, fix yourself. He can come back, Zoe, so please, you need to go home and take a rest. Hela wants to see you badly. Don’t you feel sorry for your daughter, who is always looking for you because she can’t get in here because of the pandemic? You’re pregnant, sweetie. I hope you will know how to take care of the child inside your womb. Just take some rest, then you can come back here again. I will look for Helios in the meantime,” she said and touched my cheeks. Her eyes were pleading. I wiped away my tears with the sleeve of my thick cotton jacket and nodded. Mom was right. Besides, the room was guarded by men, and it was an order from their big boss. That boss they’re calling remained a mystery to me. I have never seen his face. But I heard his voice a couple of times—emotionless and terrifying. And whenever he pays a visit to Helios, the lights must be off. Like how can he see things in the dark? I concluded that he loves darkness. Mysterious. But we are grateful because there’s still kindness growing in him. He helped us. According to Ali, it’s how he values his members. And Helios is one of the captains of his organization—he holds royalty and deserves all the best treatment.
I got home quickly because there was no traffic. L. A is one of the best countries globally and has the best when it comes to transportation. The roads are wide, and limited exposure is available as the pandemic occurs. As soon as I got out of the car, my daughter approached me swiftly. “Mommy,” she shouted. I smiled. My daughter is growing so fast. Beside her is my best friend, Cindy. Cindy presented to watch over Hela while I was in the hospital. So as Sam. But Sam is a busy woman. Thus, Cindy needs to take part. Ali, Grant, and even his twin brother Gunner they’re the ones who accompany me to the hospital. But I didn’t see them this day. It seems like they were busy as their boss gave them missions—duty calls. Maybe if Helios were awake, he would probably be with them. “Have you eaten yet, Zoe?” Cindy asked. She sat in the chair opposite me and looked at me intently. I closed my eyes and leaned my head on the sofa's armrest. I’m too lazy to climb upstairs, and I guess I will be sleeping here. I’ll take some rest and get back to the hospital. “Hey, have you eaten?” she asked again. I nodded, “yes, I’ll just take a nap.” She didn’t answer, and I only heard her heavy sigh. “I’m the one who’s having a hard time with you, Zoe. You move. You act like you were not pregnant.” “Mommy, can I sweep too?” I suddenly opened my eyes when I heard my daughter’s voice. Damn. I almost forgot about her. I smiled at her. “Come here,” I said and moved a little bit so she could lay beside me. I caged her. She touched my tummy, which made me gasp. “My yiy byothey is sweeping too, mommy?” she asked innocently. I smiled again, and Cindy laughed. “Yes, baby, and we don’t know yet if it’s a boy or a girl,” said Cindy.
I still haven’t had an ultrasound, even though my OB recommended it several times. I shook my head and hugged her. Then I let myself be drowned in darkness. But noise from the outside interrupted it. I got up quickly. “What was that?” I asked. Cindy shrugged her shoulders and started to walk through the main door. I carried my daughter and followed Cindy. Ali’s unpaintable face flashed at them. “What’s happening? Why do you seem in a hurry?” I asked. Next to him was Grant, who wiped his palm on his face. I looked for his twin, but I couldn’t find him. Is something terrible happened again? But Bill is already dead. “Zoe, promise us you won’t cry if you hear the news,” said Ali. I frowned. What is he saying? “Promise us.” It’s Grant. I smiled wryly. “What is it all about?” “Ugly duckling, please take Hela from Zoe. She seems to be having a hard time. Her bump is too big,” Calyx cut in as he arrived. Cindy was annoyed, but she still obeyed the man’s command. When she got it, she looked at the man and glared. Calyx just grinned, and it didn’t escape my sight. Do they intend to flirt in front of us? “What are you trying to say, Ali… Grant?” I asked. “Don’t cry, okay?” asked Ali. I frowned again. But I just nodded so he could say it. “Zoe, Helios is,” he started, his Adam’s apple moving as he gulped. I remained to frown and put my hands on my hips. My back hurts a bit because of the weight of my baby. “Is he awake?” Hope lit my eyes. Ali shook his head. “I’m sorry, Zoe, but Helios didn’t make it.” At that moment, my world collapsed. It took me seconds before it registered in my mind. “N-No,” I whispered. Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
My vision is getting blurry because of the tears. “No. I don’t believe you! Take… take me to him.” I started to walk and stopped in front of the car. And a man immediately opened it for me.