Chapter 44
” We are sorry if we acted in a way that you would misunderstand but it isn’t my power who causes that pain to your son”
It is the older who speak that way towards my father. The very same elder who offer his blessing to me.
“You can see it yourself that what I did isn’t related to him collapsing. Even with the blessed clothe being put in his leg, it seems like it just worsen his case”
Because of what the other had said I suddenly looked at my right leg to see whether there were changes and what shock me the most is when I saw patches of blood all over it.
I am so sure that the pain that I felt from a while ago hurt as hell. If you know I can still see that there are blood covering my leg… I can feel that the pain it’s not befitting what it is looks like. If I feel like millions of needles are being pushed inside my leg right at this moment it is hurting to that extent.Belonging to NôvelDrama.Org.
But this result in my leg,… I doubt if I have the courage to look at it. The blessed cloth that is covering it may hide the hideous sight of my leg. But… with this blood… I think that it goes any less bad
I can hear how my father’s suddenly growl as he heard those words coming from the elder
” So were you telling that the reason why my son feel the pain as that is not related to this clothe and that chant that you had given to him?”
They may sound as if they are saying that it isn’t their responsibility that my legs suddenly hurt that much but then they just said that it may be the clothes reason why I feel this way. But don’t they realize that thise cloth they gave and this place comes from them… so that makes all of the elders the culprit about what happened to me this time?
” Will you please come down it is not what you think it is”
“Then tell this fool what you mean by that. My son is hurting. The fact the I let you to accept the kindness you were offering that’s why we ask him to put those cloth around his leg since you tell that it is blessed by the goddess of the moon. Now you are telling me that the reason why my son experience such thing is because of the very same clothes that you had to offer to him?”
The grip from my father didn’t loosen as he kept saying those words questioning the elders
I never once thought that in my whole life… any person in this village can beat the elders or stand on foot with them but then right in front of me is my father who is questioning the elders just because of what happened to me
Did… he really care that much for me?
I thought all the time that my father and the others are the same that they just want me to use me for the prophecy. That they are seeing me as a male to who must obey those prophet that they had said. The only reason why I must do my best is because it is needed. At the only reason why I must always stay on top is because that is the only choice I can have.
Never in my life I imagine to experience such thing.
That my father… always think of me this way. I feel bad about thinking that he never loved me. Just like but my mother always tell me it is true that my father’s love towards his family is unshakenable. It is something that you can’t describe not until you feel it and experience your own presence.
So this is the feeling that my siblings and mother always felt whenever she is with my father. And this is also the very same feeling that everyone in this village felt whenever my father is around.
This sense of security. Sense of safety. Yes, him holding my shoulder it makes me feel like I am completely safe and far from any harm.
Now I can admit that my father is truly admirable.
I always said it before but at that moment I at moment I just feel like I needed to tell it since people express him that way. At this time I can say it myself it truly my father is indeed admirable.
Before I wanted to be strong so that I can show my father my worth, At this very moment I wanted to be strong… just like my father.
The elder still don’t reply to what my father said as they still process the perfect words to deny the truth about the bad thing that they had done towards me.
” I have lived my life respecting all the things you’ve been saying because you said it is for the goodness of everyone. It is for our village.. but.. I never thought a time would come and you will hurt someone that is precious to me”
I feel this a little nostalgic in those statements my father had said. Why do you feel like they have heared it before. But it is my sense like I have heard it somewhere?
This strange feeling of recollection. This very same nostalgic feeling is making me feel head ache.
” You have truly disappointed me. I am gravely disappointed. After all that I’ve done…”
I haven’t fully roan in this exclusive chamber but then many things already happened after entering this place. The only thing I can knew is that there is a strange light covering our views. Yes it finally this dissipate revealing the very same spot on where I am standing when I went in the inside of the exclusive chamber together with the librarian.
So we already left the place… I thought to myself as my father lead me towards the outside of the library
I am not sure why my father is acting this way but at this moment he is still guiding me as if I am some small little child who needs care
Even so I can just focus my mind in something as I feel like like things are going strange in my head
‘I am truly disappointed’
That word keeps on ringing in my head. But this time… it does not sound as the voice of my father’s. It is… strangely similar to voice as the man who might have seen this perspective is from in this perspective is from a while ago. Perhaps… is it him who said those…
‘I will never forgive you. Never’