Chpater 20
I had been in bed for hours but couldn't sleep. Everything kept playing over in my head. I still hadn't heard from Alanna. Pushing my covers back I slipped my feet into my slippers and pulled a jumper over my head. Grabbing my kindle I closed my bedroom door I couldn't sleep so there was no point lying in bed.
quietly hoping not to wake my gran.
After fixing myself a cup of hot chocolate I grabbed the blanket from the couch and headed out the back door. It was peaceful round here at night. Wrapping the blanket around my shoulders I got myself comfortable whilst trying to find a new book to read. "Can't sleep?".
I froze.
"Mind won't shut off". Locking my kindle I placed it beside me before finally lifting my head. My eyes locked with his, my heart skipped a beat. I didn't know what to do about the way I felt around him or how every time he was near my body felt at ease. I knew he would never hurt me, I could see it in his eyes.
"Is that because of what you saw tonight?". As he started to get closer my heartrate spiked. Moving my legs he took the space beside me. "Things are complicated Leah".
"What things?". I knew he was hiding something. It killed me that every time I got close to finding out it got shut down.
"If I told you I'd have to kill you". He smirked.
Biting back my smile I focused on my cup of hot chocolate. "Why are you here Jake?". It was at least 1am.
"I was out a run, I saw your light on".
"So you thought you'd come over?".
"You're not making this easy for me Leah".
"Making what easy, I have no idea what you're talking about".
He moved so quickly. Taking my cup from me he took my hand and placed it between his. "You feel it too princess, I know you do".
"Jake". I warned.
"I won't push but just so you know I'm not a patient man baby. You'll know when you need me and when that day comes I'll be waiting". Pulling my hand out of his grasp I pushed on his shoulder. I felt everything. I knew exactly what he was talking about but I didn't understand it.
"You need to leave".
"You can feel it now can't you". He whispered bending down so he was at my level. "You can feel the pull". Lifting his hand his fingers stroked my cheek, my eyes closed a sigh fell from my lips.
"What are you doing to me?". I whispered my eyes slowly opening.
"You're mine little one". Stroking my bottom lip with his thumb my tongue darted from my mouth the tip touching his skin. Why did I just do that?
As he chuckled I pushed his hand away from my face and stood up. "Whatever it is that you're doing to me you need to stop. This sick twisted thing of control you think you have over me needs to stop". I didn't like that I had no self control around him. My body did what it liked in his presence.NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
"It's not control babe. You know exactly what you're doing. All you need to do is give in". I hated that he looked so smug.
"Bye Jake". Kindle and blanket forgotten about I rushed back inside. With my back against the door I placed my hand over my heart.
I was afraid because I knew he was right.