Lost Me Gained Regret

In a daze, my mind wandered back to the past.

Back then, Bryant and I had just tied the knot six months earlier. My period was over ten days late. Despite him always being careful, a part of me couldn't help but wonder if I was pregnant.

Buying the pregnancy test, I was already bursting with thoughts on how to break the news to him.

Now, facing the reality of being pregnant, the thought of Bryant just beyond the door didn't bring any joy or excitement.

All I felt was fear, nervousness, and the unsettling feeling of uncertainty.

The worst-case scenario played in my mind: losing the baby. Just thinking about it sent a cold shiver down my spine.

In just two and a half years, everything had changed dramatically, as if worlds apart.

Feeling heavy as lead, I made my way to the door, only to find Bryant's figure nowhere in sight.

Where was he? Only my purse remained, left alone on the metallic bench by the door..

He... left?

Pulling out my phone from the purse, a new message caught my eye..

"Got caught up with something urgent. Kevin will drop off the medical report at home. later. I'll be back soon. Wait for me."

I sighed, stepping out of the medical center, my mind suddenly shifting gears The ultrasound report was already in my hands. This might be an opportunity to tweak a little something.

I dialed Christine's number, and she picked up almost instantly, "I was just about to call at work, and why did your phone suddenly go off last you. Where are you? Why aren't you night? Didn't end up having a revenge fling with Bryant, did you?"Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.

Her questions came firing out like a machine gun.

The last question made my face burn. What even was that?

I decided to answer the first question, "I'm at the BlessedCare Medical Facility." "Going for a prenatal checkup? You should've told me; I could've come with you."

Christine always got straight to the point, "Wait, isn't that part of the Ferguson Group's network? Why'd you go there?"

I gave her a brief rundown of the situation, "By the time I came out of the ultrasound room, Bryant was already gone."

"Dang, almost gave me a heart attack."

Christine summed up, "So, Bryant still doesn't know you're pregnant, right?"

"Yeah."

"Then it's all good."

I hailed a cab and leaned back in the seat once inside, "Chris, I'm feeling lost."

I had thought about altering the report. But seeing the tiny baby on the report, my heart softened unbelievably.

The doctor's words echoed in my mind, swirling incessantly.

Could this pregnancy make him reconsider...

Would that mean I could give our child a complete family and myself... a happy ending?

"Are you thinking whether he'll dump Margaret because of the baby' se Christine asked sharply after a En.

moment of thought.

I didn't hide my thoughts, "Yeah, am I being foolish?"

"Don't you dare talk about yourself like that."

I expected Christine to scold me upon hearing my plan, but instead, she said, "Jane, I know how much! you love him. Love isn't something that's born out of rationality. If everyone could cut their losses and weigh the pros and cons on time, love would become even more rare,"

"Besides, you've invested a third of your life in him. The slightest hope from him makes it hard for you to walk away. It's not you being foolish;

it's just that men are jerks."

Hearing her words, I fell into a long silence, finally speaking with a strained voice,

"I want to try one more time."