Fated is overrated

Lola POV

Returning home from the party and after everything that happened, I feel a mixture of heartache and almost uncontrollable rage. Nadia and Jason knew it was me.

Why would they defend that piece of sh*t over their best friend? I can and have taken a lot of sh*t in my life, but having the last and only two people I have left in my life betray me like that makes me break down completely. For the first time since my mother passed, I feel hot tears streaming across my face like a dam that just broke.

Panting and ugly sobbing, I head up to my bedroom and crash on the bed. What am I going to do? I can't stay here. I won't stay here now. What is there left for me in this world?

I might as well go rogue and live the remainder of my life in the woods. Or perhaps if I can find a really nice human town far, far away, take residence there.

I can't believe they betrayed me like that. I saw the recognition in their eyes, I recognized them just as much as they recognized me. And yet they f*cking growled at me for standing up for myself for once in my life. Not to mention I was only standing up for myself because I was about to get r* ped by that bastard... I'm not sure what got into his wolf as I have never seen an Alpha wolf act like that, perhaps he pitied me and didn't agree with his human counterpart trying to r*pe me either.

But I'm sure this will only mean Chris will end my life himself when he finds me. Nobody defies him unpunished. Thinking of the severity of what just happened, I throw a duffel bag on the bed, quickly tossing my essential belongings in there.

The advantage of being a poor orphan in cases such as this is that I don't have much to bring anyway. I throw in my basic clothes, mostly Nadia's hand-me-downs. Although I don't want to be reminded of her, I do really need to bring clothes. Toothbrush, hair comb, a picture of my mom and as much food as my bag can hold, are the remnants of what I have called my life as I toss them into the bag.

I leave my phone at home. Nobody to call anyway and if I run into trouble and need medical attention to survive - so be it, then I guess my time has come. This is not much to call a life anyway.

Should I leave a note? There is not really much to say. Nobody here loves or cares for me at all, I have even lost the last two people I thought loved me back. With that, I decide to write only "f*ck you all. Thanks for the sh*t show. I'm out".

Without wasting any more precious time, I barge out the door and start pacing through the woods towards the pack borders. 'Ehm, my wolf.. Are you there? Are you OK? I'm sorry if this isn't what you had imagined for your human counterpart.

I'm sorry you are stuck with me and I'm sorry I'm forcing us to go rogue. I hope you can see my reasoning and forgive me one day, although I really don't deserve your forgiveness. 'my name is Liberty, Lola. And don't you ever apologize to me for all the sh*t you have been put through.

I have seen your memories and I am really proud to have you as my human part. I wish you could see yourself like I do. I know you have been belittled and put down a lot, made to believe you are worthless. Please know you are above that and I won't tolerate anyone bringing you down ever again!

You are not making me go rogue, I choose to be one in unison with you. We are and will always be a team and leaving this place is the best choice you could make for us.

Never question your instinct. We are meant for better things than this. I would love to take us out of here myself but what we did back there was exhausting, and I really need some rest.

Call my name if you need me, OK? Also, before you head out to unclaimed territory, use the pack mind link to reject the pack officially' 'ok, rest well Liberty. You are too kind'.

I smile at my wolf's words, she is so kind to me. I sure hope I can be the human counterpart she deserves one day. I hope she is right in saying we are meant for better things.

As I walk further, I start wondering how I am even supposed to use the mind link. I never have before and I thought I wasn't supposed to be able to until my ceremony.

I first try to tune into the pack mind link to hear the others a few times. By the fourth try, I can hear the patrols discussing their shifts among themselves - this is useful for me to ensure I don't bump into anyone.

Upon reaching the pack borders, I look ahead onto the unclaimed territory I am about to enter, where the possibility of rogues awaits me.

I chuckle at my own thoughts, as I am also a rogue now. Not all rogues are dangerous and violent, some are still in control, but the vast majority will attack without warning. They are rabid beasts lunging at anything that passes.

It has something to do with being out on one's own for so long - it makes many wolves go completely feral and lose their human side completely.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

And then there are also rogues where the human part is still present and in control - but those can be even more dangerous with sinister intentions. There is generally a reason why they have turned rogue or have been forced to turn rogue (when exiled from your pack). And 99% of the time it isn't a particularly appealing reason.

Regardless, this is my life now. I take one last look back and yell into the pack mind link "I, Lola Chevron, hereby officially reject the Red Dagger pack as my pack and I declare myself a rogue henceforward". I feel a small snapping pain in my chest and I know I am ready to roll. I step across the border and feel like a weight has been lifted off me already.