Diary of Fragile Heart (Spin of Loving You Too Long)

Yes, I engaged in polyandry. I was married to Deryl and had a child with him, but shamelessly, my father married me off to another man. I didn’t want to divorce Deryl because he was the only one who accepted me for who I am, listened to my complaints, and loved me unconditionally. And what more could I ask for from my first husband? Even during my marriage, I was tempted and fell slightly in love with him.

Until finally, my father-in-law was indicted for corruption, and my first husband was declared bankrupt. I was forced to divorce him. Taking custody of my daughter, and wickedly, my mother asked me to file for divorce, claiming that my husband had committed violence, which he never did in the name of God. My mother did all this because she was tired of my husband’s continuous pleas for me to return to him and start over from scratch, and she knew I was almost swayed by him.

I truly wanted to die at that moment. But I loved my daughter too much. I couldn’t let her stay with those monsters and turn her into a second Phoebe. Because my daughter was beautiful and so obedient.

I really wanted to die. I wanted to commit suicide. But instead of ending my life, I chose to numb my senses. Until finally, that man returned. Gladwin Hampton returned. He was still single at that time. And I felt that he would end my difficult times.

I swore, if Gladwin accepted me, then I would leave Deryl and become his only wife. I would be a devoted wife to him. And I would love him with all my heart, because I knew he would be the right husband for me and would love my daughter. Considering how kind he had been with the children all this time.

Until finally, I learned the truth. That Gladwin loved the girl who had been his nephew’s friend since childhood. Who was now the stepdaughter of his twin sister, Claire.

I didn’t want to give up. Before the wedding actually took place, I thought I would keep fighting. I’ve lost my dignity all this time, so let this be the last time.

I fought to gain sympathy from Julie Hampton. But it seemed clear that both the twin sister and her niece really disliked me. But I wasn’t willing to give up; I would keep fighting for Gladwin. For me, for my well-being, for the healing of my heart.

Julie clearly pressured me to marry Gladwin, even after knowing about Gladwin’s love for Flavia. But because of the girl’s disability, Julie feared for her offspring’s continuity, so she didn’t support her, even though their position was not wrong.

Julie’s fear of Flavia’s inability to have children fueled my desire even more. I became more aggressive in approaching Julie, constantly searching for Flavia’s shortcomings and heating up the middle-aged woman to continue rejecting Flavia as her daughter-in-law and make me her replacement. Because I thought Gladwin was a obedient son who would do anything his mother asked.

But I was wrong. Gladwin’s love for Flavia was too deep. Even the man who was younger than me firmly refused his mother’s request. I lost my mind, feeling desperate with my desire. I wanted Gladwin, because I also wanted to know what it feels like to be loved and fought for like the way he fought for Flavia in front of his mother.

Deryl did love me, but he couldn’t fight for me. He relied too much on my father to survive. While Gladwin, he was very independent, and I was sure he wouldn’t be shaken by any threats.

So I chose to terrorize Flavia. Hoping that by hurting her heart, she would slowly step back. And once again, I lost. Gladwin ended up marrying her without his mother’s knowledge while she was in a coma.

I’m hurt. Disappointed. Sad and angry. I’m really angry. Frustrated and tired. Why did Gladwin not choose me and instead chose that disabled woman?

I’m trying to find a way. I’m forcing Julie to give Flavia an option. Because truthfully, I’m also scared. I know what Flavia is going through. She’s not incapable of getting pregnant, it’s just that the injuries she suffered in the accident make it a bit difficult for her to conceive due to complications with her uterus. But if she undergoes therapy and follows the pregnancy program correctly, her chances of having a child are very high.

I persuade Julie to give Flavia time for one year until she can have a child. Hoping that in that year Flavia, who is currently losing her memory, won’t go through the pregnancy program as she should. And I’m reluctant to give her advice.

I persevere. And in the tenth month, I become too desperate because of Gladwin’s attitude and also the pressure from both my parents.

And now Flavia has disappeared. Three months have passed and Gladwin’s behavior hasn’t improved; it’s even worse. I didn’t predict that the shy girl would resort to extreme measures by leaving Gladwin. I thought her actions would only involve letting me and Gladwin get married. And it would benefit me if she chose to remain silent because I could continue to hurt her until she finally felt tired and decided to leave Gladwin. But I was wrong. Again, I was wrong.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

She left, and I was humiliated on my wedding night. Even during our three months of marriage, Gladwin never once agreed to touch me. He never agreed to visit the place he rented for me.

My parents are also angry because my marriage to Gladwin didn’t meet their expectations. Gladwin only provides his salary, nothing else. All of his possessions have become his legal wife’s because I’m just his mistress. So, what can I do?

Now I have to find a way to conquer that man. Who has now also disappeared somewhere. Quietly requesting leave, making all the hospital staff ask me about his departure. I, who have only been a mannequin all this time, feel more worthless. Then who should I be angry with?

I won’t give up so easily.

After all this waiting, I won’t give up so easily. If they want to get rid of me, then they have to do it their way because I won’t let Gladwin be happy with Flavia.

If initially I wanted Gladwin’s love and all his attention, now I will return to my obsessive soul. I will make Gladwin kneel before me, making him solely mine. And making all his possessions mine. And when I have them, I won’t share them anymore. Not for my mother, not for my father. Only for myself and my only daughter.

Deryl? That man is nothing more than my sex object now. I’ll leave him soon, after I successfully get Gladwin.