Denied by Destiny: Trapped in the Shadows of the Mate Bond

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I'm not entirely sure how long I remained in his office, my eyes remained fixated on the door he left through for so long that my eyes were dry. That's fine, they'd be soaking wet soon enough.

I knew he wouldn't come back for me, but my mind was in a state of perplexity that a mate connection with another in the same room as him, couldn't compete to a bond miles away. Even though it was abandoned by her 4 years ago. 1

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I really never stood a chance, surely the Moon Goddess would have foreseen this. I must have wronged her in a past life, now reaping the penalties.

When my feet finally start to move, it is purely only out of a robotic function that they do so.

My mind wants to go home and again, I'm not sure how long it takes for my legs to finally comply. But I'm very gentle in my movements, I even make sure his office door is closed behind me, also the alpha house. By the time he returns, it would be as if I was never there.

I feel a clarity I haven't felt since the day I married Than. I know my path now...and it is not here. 2

The sun outside is starting to lose its strength, the garden lights of the anniversary party now starting to take their hold.

Cheery music continues to play out, the fast beats of a dance track a complete contrast to the woeful song playing in my head.

Is it muddy, because my feet are incredibly heavy to lift all of a sudden. 1

All my mind can think of is getting back to my pack house. It's as if buidings and trees can't even stop me

I go as the crow flies...not even following the path cemented out to protect the gardens. My robotic form doesn't understand the scenic route. The only option is the direct path, even if beautiful flowers are in my

way.

The overspill of pack members from the hall all look my way as I walk towards them. Smiles greet me and I can only muster a small polite smile back. It isn't their fault I am broken...they've been nothing but kind to me. Nothing but supportive since the first day I entered as an outsider.

They call out to me, waving drinks in their hands...trying to entice me to party with them. The younger me might want to drink my sorrows, but not the mature me that knows differently. Knows it won't actually solve anything...alcohol would only numb the pain for a short space of time...not actually take it away. It will return soon enough.

I keep on walking.

I even spot Rosa and Riley laughing as they share a joke with their friends, they non-the-wiser of my own heartbreak this evening. And that is how it should be...they are his pack members...not mine.

The music continues to escort me home, the noise only dwindling out when I close my front door behind

I've done this before...hidden my fegs to the outside world only for the heavens to crash down on me when I enter my own solitude.

My legs have completed their robotic task. It is all I asked of them and they have fulfilled their purpose to get me home without collapsing in front of people.

But now they can collapse and so they do.

The flashback of him walking out returns to me, my eyes stinging with the tears that are threatening to fall.

This was déjà vu for me. I've been here before, in this position. Both mentally and physically.

"No more!" I declare to my wolf.

"I can't take any more. Promise me!" I beg of her through my sobs.

If my own fated mates can't want me...no other person will. So, what was the point. 1

As long as I had my wolf...then I would be fine in life. I may not flourish but it will be a life of my choosing, and that is beautiful to me in its own way.

"I promise you...no more." Her voice whimpers in my head. She watched Hector and his wolf leave for Alora too, both making their decisions. She may not have shifted in front of Hector or his wolf, but she not once faltered in her hope that he would pick us, pick her.

If we were two separate entities I would be feg her hugging me as I wept in her arms. It feels almost the same...she remains forward with me throughout my cries..until my legs find purpose again, find their strength.

I wipe away my tears before standing up and checking my laptop one last time before I move.

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Ebony Woods