Always Been You

Jensen was torn between grinning at her sheer nerve and cussing at her unsubtle hints that his response was in any way defective.

Okay. So maybe he was a little rude. He could admit that, but It wasn’t like she didn’t deserve it. He thought.

But even at that, his gaze remained riveted on a particular line: I’m moving back into town in a few days.…

She was coming back. So even if he didn’t meet with her. He was definitely going to see her again. And that was something he wasn’t sure he wanted to do.

He sighed.

“Damn you, Kat,” he muttered. “Damn you”.

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Katherine realized that she was boxing up the kitchen stuff with a little more force than required.

She stopped, and took a deep breath. It wasn’t her fault. No one could blame her. Jensen and his stupid attitude was capable of making anyone lose it.

The nerve of the man. He was refusing to meet her, not because he was busy like he said. She knew he wasn’t. He was doing it on purpose. Ignoring her. Being annoying as usual. Being cold towards her. Like he was the only one who had something to be angry about.

Well she did too.

She sat on one of the kitchen stools and then she thought about Jensen. And how she had had such a huge crush on him. Openly infatuated with the best looking boy in school…. her brother’s best friend. Right from when she was just a teenager.

He never noticed. Or maybe he did and he just hadn’t cared. She didn’t know.

She had done everything possible… Everything she could. But he never took the hint. Never looked at her the way she wanted. He was so busy with all the cheerleaders and being popular to take any notice of her.

She tried to be his friend. She remembered baking him those cookies and cakes, bringing them to his house. Even one time she and Jon had gotten into a fight because he kept stealing the cookies she was baking and eating them. She had managed to save some of the cookies from Jon and she had packed them up in that box and taken them to Jensen. She remembered Jon teasing her about her crush on Jensen and their mother laughing and telling Jon to leave her alone, yet she didn’t mind. As long as Jensen liked her cookies and cupcakes.

She always loved the way he loved eating stuff she baked. So she did that for him a lot. Her own stupid way of letting him know how much she cared about him.

He noticed her alright.. But not in the way that she wanted. She ended up in the ‘friend-sister zone’Content provided by NôvelDrama.Org.

She had been persistent, and he had been nice, but it hadn’t made him see her as anything other than a friend, his best friend’s sister. He never saw her as more than that.

She had enjoyed those moments they spent together. On their favorite place, sitting on that rock, talking about everything. Going almost everywhere together.

It had hurt so bad when he left for college. She had missed him terribly. She had tried to keep in touch but soon she started to feel like she was bothering him. Most of the time when she called he was always busy doing something or about to go someplace. He was obviously enjoying college life and she honestly didn’t want to bother him. Eventually, the calls and texts reduced and then finally stopped. He was having a great time over there and she had to understand that she didn’t fit into his world anymore.

It got easier after she went to stay with her aunt and after she got into the college. At least she didn’t have to live in a place where she was constantly reminded of him.

And everything had been fine till she got back. She tried to stay away from him. But then he came over one day and asked her to hang out with him.

And then it all came back again, all those feelings she had locked up came rushing back again.

But this time it was different because Jensen had felt the same way. At least that was what she thought.

She remembered the first time he kissed her. It was amazing and she was the happiest girl alive. She remembered sneaking off to that little cabin to be with him, almost every day. So she spent the entire holiday falling in love with him all over again.

Till that night he had walked away from her. Letting her know he couldn’t be with her. He wasn’t ready for something like that… He couldn’t give her what she wanted… He had told her. All that time they had spent together had clearly meant more to her than it did to him.

She had cried her eyes out that night. Her heart felt like it was going to break in half. Then she decided she was done with her feelings for him.

She had dated Mitch, and she had honestly thought he cared about her. Till she found out that he was cheating on her a year later after she left with him.

So maybe Jensen was right about Mitch not caring about her. He was angry because she had left with Mitch. But she didn’t give a fuck about his feelings right now. She was mad at him too.

He was the one who walked away from her first. And she wasn’t going to stay just because he asked her to… she had honestly thought Mitch had cared about her.

Her life had felt a bit empty after that. She had a good job. She was paid well but it still kinda felt empty. Till Tim came along.

She hadn’t planned to adopt. All she had done was volunteer to help at an orphanage. They were understaffed and she had just come to help, bringing some toys with her to visit the children.

And then she saw Tim. He was three years old then. So little, and he had the most beautiful smile that did things to her heart. How could anyone not want such a cute little thing? She had thought. She visited more times after that. She found out she loved being with him, she loved caring for him and carrying him.

She had decided to adopt him. It was the best decision she ever made.

The sound of her phone beeping made her snap out of her thoughts. She checked and saw that she had a new message. A reply from Jensen.