ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy pov

“Hey baby girl, it’s fine, I am here with you,”

I heard Cross say as he hugged me close, I didn’t know when he came back into the room and wasn’t expecting to even be there when I woke up, maybe I was dreaming this, because when he left earlier he didn’t look like he was coming back, I heard the car leave but I never heard it come back in, I opened my eyes and got out of his embrace, opening and closing my eyes to make sure I wasn’t dreaming it.

“It’s not a dream? You are here?”

I asked to be sure.

“Darling, why won’t I be, I told I was going out to clear my head and I came back after,”

“I thought you hated me now, I thought you weren’t going to come back to me, I thought I had lost you,”

I cried, I seemed to be crying a lot and felt ashamed.

“Now why will you think that Kathy? I love you and that’s never gonna change, it will take more than a few even if it’s a lot of photos and tapes from your past relationships to make me stop loving you, nothing can stop me, and we are a team remember,”

He said. Now I was sure I was dreaming because there was no way that he still loved me, not after he saw the video of me sucking another man off, I got off the bed and ran to the restroom to wash my eyes.

“Hey, are you okay? Talk to me, Kathy,” you are scaring me,”

He said coming after me.

“I am dreaming and I am going to hate it when I wake up and you already left me, I can’t hope for you to still love me, it will be selfish of me, I can’t ta**”

“Oh Katherine, shut the fuck up, you are not dreaming, why will I leave you over something that is not your fault? Do you think that little of me woman? I hate to admit but you guys were in a relationship and you loved him and must have thought he did too, what if it had been me? With my past relationship? Will you leave me just because a crazy ex brings a video of us? Baby, you forgave me for cheating on you and here you think I am going to leave you because of something that happened in the past, it’s not your fault so better stop blaming yourself for that bastard’s shit, it’s on him for being a prick, not you, the bastard should be the one ashamed and not you, you did nothing wrong, well except loving the wrong person which is still not your fault.”

He let out, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, he still loved me, he doesn’t blame me and won’t leave me, could I believe those things, am I allowed to be happy that he still choose to be with me? I don’t even know if I deserve it but I wanted to accept it, wanted it to be real so bad, it will break me if I woke up and find out this was a dream.

“Look at me Kathy, look at me,”

He commanded and I looked up at his eyes, they didn’t carry the hate and disgust I was scared it will carry, his eyes, they didn’t hate me, they were looking at me like they still cared for me, still loved me, and were worried for me.

“Kathy, I love you, that’s not going change okay? Do you get me? You are not dreaming and we will find a solution to this together because we are a team, we fight together, okay? I am not going anywhere, I am not going to leave you,”

He assured which made me start crying again but this time I wasn’t crying because I was sad, I was crying because I was happy.

“Hey don’t cry,”

He consoled, hugging me.

“I love you Cross, I don’t want to ever lose you,”

I let out through my tears.

“I love you more my crybaby and I am never going to leave you or let you go, don’t ever think of that again, it hurt so much that you didn’t believe in me,”From NôvelDrama.Org.

“I am sorry, but when you said you needed time to come to terms with it, I thought that was the end, that you were going to leave me,”

“You silly woman, I only had to clear my head as it was too much for me to handle, that didn’t mean I was gonna be gone for long, I wasn’t even mad at you, I would be insensitive to be mad at you over something that happened in the past, I realized you might be feeling down and need me close so I came back but you were asleep and I didn’t want to wake you, then you were crying in your sleep, I am sorry I left, I shouldn’t have,”

He said wiping the tears off my eyes with his hands, he placed a soft kiss on my forehead.

“God, I don’t know what to say,”

“Don’t say anything, just don’t blame yourself, and for the sake of your health and that of our baby will you stop crying, please?”

“I think crying has more to do with my hormones, I can’t even help it.”

“I figured, but it’s worrying, I can’t stand to see you cry, makes me sad,”

He said hugging me again.

“But what am I going to do Cross? I don’t have the money he is requesting for and I don’t want to give him any money either but I know Louis, if he says he will release it to the public then he is going to do it, I can’t stand the shame, I just can’t,”

I told him, voicing out all my fear.

“Don’t worry, we are not going to give him any money, we will find a way okay? Don’t stress yourself because of that, if he calls you just give me the phone, or better yet you can get a new phone and give me the one you are currently using, I will be the one to talk to him, it’s about time he paid for all the shits he has been doing,”

He responded, his words gave me so much assurance, I leaned into him and he hugged me close.

“I love you, Katherine, don’t ever doubt that okay?”

“Okay, and I love you more, thank you,”

“Let’s get you to bed, you have cried too much today and need to rest, I am going to make sure that bastard pays for making you cry,”

He added, and lead me to the bed, I laid down and he did too, pulling me close, I held onto him thanking God that I still had him that I didn’t lose our baby and I didn’t lose him…