ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy Pov

I stood in front of our mansion and for the first time I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know if I should knock or just walk in, I felt like a total stranger, I gathered up my last drop of confidence and walked up to the gate, the giant gate looking so big and scary for the first time ever, I had on a plain T-shirt and faded pair of jeans that I got at a cheap price at the market, it would be the cheapest thing I have ever worn, I didn’t bother to do my makeup and my hair was packed up in a messy bun, I looked miserable even to my eyes, I walked close to the gate and before I could knock, the security man came out, he looked shocked to see me, but quickly got over it and ushered me in, I guess he didn’t know yet that I am no longer part of the family, I didn’t remember his name as I wasn’t good at remembering people’s names.

“Are my parents home?”

I asked in a rather tiny voice.

“Yes, your mom is home but the dad is not, he left for a meeting a while ago,”

He disclosed and I shook my head in understanding biting my lips and wondering if I should just go back and come some another day when my dad is around, my mom is harder to talk to but I was already here, I mustered up the courage and went up towards my mom’s home office where she is most likely to be at this time of the day, I met her secretary on the way and she too looked shocked to see me, she didn’t say anything to me though, she nodded and walked passed me, I said a silent prayer and I knocked gently on my mom’s office and opened the door when she told me to come in, she was busy with her laptop and didn’t lookup.

“Maria, I want you to prepare food for about fifty people, I am having people over later,”

She said without looking up, she thought I was the chef.

“Mom, it is me, Katherine,”

I said and she looked up at once, her expression changed immediately, I got scared.

“What are you doing here? Who let you into this house, o thought I made it clear that you are not allowed to come close to any of the Stevenson properties?”

“Mom,”

“I am not your mom young lady, you seize to be my daughter the day you brought shame to this family, so if you would excuse me,”

She said going back to her work.

“Mom, I am sorry, please forgive me,”

I said tears starting to drop down from my face.

“Just give me one more chance, please mom, please, I don’t have anywhere else to go,”

I pleaded, but it was as if I wasn’t talking, cuz she didn’t answer me, instead, she picked up her office line and dialed a number.

“What did I tell you about letting strangers into this house? Do you want to be out of a job, I want you to come here and remove the person in my office right now before I do something that I might regret,”

She said harshly on the phone, I have always known my mom to be harsh but what I didn’t expect is how she was talking right now, she sounded like a different person.

“It’s all your fault, mom, I know I messed up big time, but please give me a second chance

I said out loud and yes it was all my fault, I should not have trusted Louis, I should have listened to my parents, now that I had time to think about it, and engagement isn’t marriage, I could have just gone ahead with the engagement and get out if I felt I couldn’t live with Cross, maybe I would have had more time to plan, maybe I would have seen through Louis them.

“Mom, please, I know I offended you a hell lot, I am sorry, please don’t throw me out please, please,”

I cried dropping down to my knees.

“You should have thought of the consequences of your actions before you decided to elope, why are you back a week later, crying and begging, I thought you had it all planned out, you took eight million from your account and fled, leaving our family to face shame and embarrassment, don’t tell me eight million finished in a week?”

She said standing up from her seat to walk around me, I covered my face with my hands, tears gushing out.

“I am sorry Mom, I am sorry,”

“So you ran away and blew up eight million in a week, come on, I thought you had sense at least,”

“I didn’t blow it up, it was stolen from me,”Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

I said in tears.

“Stolen? By who? The man you planned to run away with? You got scammed? Serve you right,”

She said with a wicked laugh.

“Mom,”

I cried.

“I am not your mom, you are no longer part of this family, for your information, your name has been removed from the family register and none of your siblings are to have anything to do with you or they will be cut off too, and trust me no one of them want to be cut off so you are on your own,”

She said with an evil smile that I have never seen on my mom.

“No..”

“I am not your mother, you ungrateful bitch, now get out of my face, I don’t want to ever set my eyes on you, you ingrate,”

I held unto her trousers as she made to leave and begged shamelessly.

“Mom, please, don’t do this to me, I have no one else to go to, I am sorry please don’t throw me out, I won’t make it, I will do, please, please,”

I pleaded but she shook her trousers off, just as the security came in.

“Throw her out and don’t ever let her in here, she is not welcome neither is she a member of this family, do I make myself clear?”

She said and the two men nodded. I ran over to where she was and held unto her again begging but she beckoned on the men to come to get me.

“Mom, please, don’t do this to me, mom, please I beg you,”

I pleaded, but she didn’t listen to me, I sat back down in tears, I couldn’t even blame her, it was all my fault, I brought this on myself, she warned me, I knew what she was capable of doing, I knew my mom had the final say in this house, still, I stepped on her words, as the men got closer, I stood up by myself and threw my hands up in the air.

“I will leave on my own, you don’t have to drag me out, can I at least go and get some of my things?”

I asked, I had some money in my room, if I could just get in there I can use that for some days, I should have done that before coming to see my mom, but I hadn’t thought of it.

“There is nothing there that belongs to you, every piece of you have been wiped out, even if you go in there you will meet an empty room,”

She disclosed, I felt it them, it Dawn on me then, that indeed I have been wiped out of my family.

“Alright,”

I said wiping my tears, I am just going to leave this place, get myself some drugs and feed myself overdose of it, I knew I won’t survive, not when I barely knew how the real world works, my fate was sealed, I am going to die by my own hands at a young age all because of my foolishness as I made to leave my mom’s voice stopped me.

“You know, the only way you can redeem yourself is to get Cross to marry you, of he agrees then you can come back if he does not, then you are on your own forever, don’t worry, I won’t stand in your way, I don’t know you anyway,”

She said and turned her back on me as the security men who had once been part of my security too led me out of the home that had once be my home too, I looked up at the room that used to be mine, which I could no longer access and the tears just kept coming on their own…

I had no choice now, I thought, it either I end my suffering or I go to Cross and beg, I didn’t want to do the latter though, death seemed better than begging him, I already knew he

would not accept me, so there is no need to push my luck, I am just going to leave for the few short days I can survive and end it all, I thought as I entered the road without looking, the noise of a car horn brought me back to my senses but it was much too late…